Memories are an incredible thing. Some are painful, some are great. Some may be painfully great or greatly painful. Even looking at things can trigger endless amounts of detailed memories. Remembering some can bring up a collection of others.
Had you asked our family 9 years ago what this week meant to us, it would represent death. On May 20th, 2007, my great grandma, Virigina Newcomb (or Grandma Ninny as the great grandkids called her) died from pulmonary fibrosis.
Unless you knew her, all of the last paragraph probably means nothing to you. But you know how it is when someone you loved isn’t here to talk to you or swing in the backyard with you. Memories.
This week I smelled peonies for the first time in a long while. Why does that matter? Let me tell you. Peonies are a significant part of my memory of Grandma Ninny. Their smell triggers countless memories of her. Peonies are also the wedding flower.
You see, peonies represent something nostalgic and sweet. They bring back memories of something painful. Now, peonies represent newness and life.
Have you ever felt sad and happy at the same time? Rejoice with those who rejoice and weep with those who weep, but it’s ok to feel a little sad in your moment of happiness. After all, if you haven’t felt broken before, you won’t know how it is to be happy.
Bittersweet: A feeling that has to be described with two feelings because it’s so special. Love the old moments because they give you a greater love for the new moments.
Verse: “Rejoice with those who rejoice and weep with those who weep.” Romans 12:15
Song: “Smile (Short Version)” by Michael Jackson from the album The Ultimate Fan Collection Extras (2013)
For when you’re missing someone: “Miss You” by Mat Kearney from the album Just Kids (2015)