No. 23: Real Life Ruby

Ever since I can remember, there was always something about myself that I didn’t like. Whether it was the was my belly looked, or my eyebrows, the way I laughed, the way I sounded on video, my forehead, my nose. I’ve felt it over and over. And I know I’m not the only one. But somehow that never seems to make it better because what other people see as imperfections, I somehow think that’d be better than what I have.

But the truth is, I am the way I am because…that’s just me. I still have insecurities. I still don’t like the way my nose looks in certain angles, the way my chin hangs, or how fast I can gain weight. The way I think about it though, is that I was given those traits for a reason. I can talk about it with my family when we all look around and go “Your ears looks like mine!” or “You have small hands like us!”.

One thing about me is that I like to draw. Actually, I love pretty much any kind of art stuff. And sometimes I’ll draw something and I just feel super proud about it. Sounds kinda conceited but I’m a perfectionist and when I finally make something the way I want it, I’m pretty pleased about it.


I think God looks at us the same way. He put so much effort and love into making you and giving you a name, picking out your eye color, counting the hairs on your head. He sculpted your body, grew your feet the perfect size, broadened your shoulders the right distance. Every thing was intentional. And every thing about you was made perfect in His sight.

So one of the times I was thinking these things about myself, I was really beating myself up. I heard something on the inside that was as clear as day, but as quiet as the quietest whisper.
“Why do you insult my masterpiece?”
Well…I don’t know. Why do I? I do well with analogies and the Lord knows that too, so He got on my level to explain how proud He is of His masterpiece. I beat myself up because I don’t see myself as a masterpiece. But if I compare myself to one of my art pieces, I understand where He’s coming from.

Insecurity is natural. You’re going to find things about yourself that you don’t like and sometimes that’s ok…Because when you see yourself in the way He does, it changes your perspective, it changes your heart.

So maybe it’s not art for you. Maybe it’s soccer and that title you just won. Or maybe it’s writing and you just wrote the best piece in your LIFE. There’s always something you’re proud of that is an analogy for how He feels about you but no matter what, He loves you more than you could ever love your trophy or my drawings. Infinitely more. He thinks you’re so much more beautiful than the sunsets.

So no matter what you think in that moment when you’re beating yourself down, remember that you’re insulting a masterpiece, a true work of art. His crowned jewel, most prized possession. ❤️

Verses:

“Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Donʼt be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.” Luke‬ ‭12:7‬

“…She is worth far more than rubies.” Proverbs 31:10

Songs:

“Work of Art” by Britt Nicole from the self-titled album Britt Nicole (2016)

“Unusual” by Francesca Battistelli from the album If We’re Honest (2014)

“Priceless” by for King & Country from the album Run Wild. Live Free. Love Strong. (Deluxe Anniversary) (2014)

“Beautiful” by Mali Music from the single (2014)

“Beautiful” by Group 1 Crew from the EP Spacebound (2010)

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